For the Sake of HTML III

Poetry

Bits and pieces of letters
Limited by nothing
Gathering into words
Slowly flavoring the void
Surely filling the emptiness
Pushing the freezing emotions to flow
Extracting the blocked thoughts
through words set up of letters
The door to the heart opened

For the Sake of HTML II

For the Sake of HTML

Tjoerhat III

Feeling kinda lost right now. Burdened by obligations... But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't find a motivation to fulfill my obligations. Damn it!!!!!! XP

Autumn

tiny gold sheets flutter down
swinging in the rhythm of wind
paint the earth in bright yellow

Faked Reality

In the world of hazy hallucination
The void soul moving in the corpse named body
Opening the eyes staring at the blank blur
Being in places never in the slightest intend to be
Going to places never aware to know
Functioning just like a damned machinery
Chasing after unrealizable dream, dreams after dreams
Is it real or is it just some scripted jokes
Is it the real me, flesh and blood?

too much of suspense silenced the last muted murmur of my sanity

His Warmth

Sensing his gentle foot steps, my heart fluttering...
As the bed creaks under his movement
A surge of warmth flows into my heart

Hearing the rustles of bed sheet
Feeling his body warmth slowly seeping into me
Relaxing under his weight
~ Gently pressing down my body

As the morning come
He snuggled closer
and joy fill me up
~ Let my heart swell almost bursting


---- Somehow I don't know what to write after that, sorry ^^' I'll continue next time ----

---- A Friend ----

---- As I looked back ----
My life is a path full of steps and missteps
The things I should have done
The things I shouldn't do

Within the mists of those steps
Desperately, persistently
I looked for a jewel, all the missteps worth for
And it lies there, waiting to be found on the right time

---- Now I know ----
I have had it within my grasps, all this long
Warmed my heart every time it lost its warmth
Always there, my shiny center point

Feeling blessed to be able to find it
Determined to keep it close in my heart
The treasure I wouldn't exchange with anything

----Now I'm looking back ----
The steps that I took, the steps I didn't take
Grateful of all of it
As they guide me finding my treasured jewel

---- I'm lucky, having you as my friend ----

After the Rain

As the rain stopped

the air cleared

the life straighten

each of the leaves shake it's green

glowing with lovely freshness

greeting the fuel of life

Annual Flashback

As the year flash back

the feeling of loss is overwhelming

Regret for the wasted time and energy

A year that lost

Remembrance of failure and mistake

Another black period on the long way of life

As the year goes by

another hope rise

another goal is set

To get rid of the tiny me

Didn't brave enough to struggle

struggling to realize those dream

As the year flashback

new hope wash the past cowardice away

preparing to get stronger to avoid the same past mistake




another small ritual to carry on

Missing something...

Hehehehehehehe kemaren pagi g kebangun karena mimpi yang ga pernah g bayangin sekali pun bahwa g bisa mimpi hal kaya gitu.

Huehehehehehehe penasaran g mimpi apa??? G mimpi temen sesd g. Lucunya g ga pernah bener2 deket ma tu anak, dan ga pernah ada kontak lagi sekalipun dari sejak lulus sd. Hahahahahahaha pas bangun langsung kaget, kog bisa bisanya mimpi si itu.....

Setelah dipikir2 lagi mungkin karena g baca message yang ngajakin temen2 sesd buat reuni. Wanna be there :(

Without even know, I do miss that, somehow, childhood friend. Someone who actually almost always get on my nerve but somehow nice.

The Fog

Gently nipping the early tips of the leaves
Caressing, protective beyond measure
Slowly easing down onto the earth
Covering the beauty from the hungry eyes stripping it bare
Firmly draping the lovely arm around the trees
Bestowing even the proudest one a dash of romance
Unconsciously,
Emphasizing the glowing grace of nature

Believe in the Void

As my feet take to initiative to move
Confidently walk down the path toward the future
Path that unbeknown and incomprehensible

Assured in the unknown
Faithful to the uncertainty

Drown in the flow of knowledge
Lost in the ever change of perspective

Still,

Step by step I walk down my path
Indulge in the blindness from the light
Light of the bright future

Ajang Pilosopi

Sebenernya apa seh kesulitan itu????
Kenapa g tanya begitu? Karena menurut g kesulitan yang diakibatkan oleh pilihan seorang manusia bukanlah kesulitan yang bener2 kesulitan.
Dan yang orang yang ada dalem kesulitan macem gini buat g bukan orang yang bener2 patut ditolong.
Bingung khan????


Gini gini ceritanya:
ada bapa2 mau pinjem telor 3 biji ke ibu2 yang ga punya makan dan cuman punya telor 3 biji 3 bijinya untuk ibu itu sendiri, suaminya dan anakya..... Kenapa bapa itu ga punya telor ampe harus pinjem telor ke ibu miskin? Karena biarpun bapa itu benernya punya telor asin dia ga mau lagi ma telor asin dia dan tuh telor asin langsung dia buang ke kali. Kenapa dibuang? Karena dia pikir, dia bakal langsung dapet telor ayam pas dia butuh telor ayam..... Eh ternyata hari itu ada orang yang borong persediaan telor ayam satu kota. Alhasil cuman tersisa 3 telor ayam punya ibu miskin. Emang seh bapa2 ini orang baek, dia ga ragu2 juga tolongin ini si ibu miskin. Tapi haruskah ibu miskin kasiin telor dia yang notabene satu satunya makanan yang dia punya????

Sekarang balik lagi ke kalimat2 (yang kaga dicetak miring, yang letaknya pas awal bangged) yang g tulis sebelomnya, menurut g kesulitan si bapa ini tuh bukan kesulitan yang tulen kesulitan. Karena lagi lagi menurut pandangan g, si bapa ini cuman seorang yang ga mau tanggung jawab atas tindakan dia (buang telor asin dia) tanpa pikir akibatnya. Tapi karena dia ga mau laper dia langsung mau pinjem telornya ibu miskin, karena dia tau ibu miskin ga bisa tolak permintaan dia. Wong, ibu ini dah banyak dia tolong kog...... So udah sewajarnya kalo ibu miskin serahin itu 3 telor biar bapa kaya ga laper, apa yang terjadi ma ibu miskin abisnya? Bapa itu dah ga mau tau lagi deh.......

Ini cerita g bikin sendiri, tapi dalem cerita ini ada juga kadar kenyataannya. Hal semacem gini sering baneget kejadian di dunia ini. Dan menurut g benernya bapa ini tidak layak ditolong sama sekali. :p

desperates ramble

I wanna see how does my back look like

-No Title-

In this world crowded with lifes and death
What's the meaning of live?
Trying to chase away the deaths with every of our step
OR
Trying to get away from the death with very steps we make?

Bored to the Point of Sickness

As the days goes by
The seconds linger on each steps
making the intolerable into pure nightmare
sitting in the middle of a mumbling scene
unable to hear hence to understand
From deep inside the sickness creeps slowly
ready to throw up along each lingering seconds

Missing Love

In the dark of the night
I crawled on to the bed
Exhausted and drained, I lie
Missing the love I used to hold
Hold on tight, dear to the heart

Soundlessly I wept
Wishing to hold the missing love
Love that fill my heart with the soft warmth
Calming my edgy empty soul

I listen restlessly
Trying to catch the fain footsteps
Footsteps that getting away
Echoing the missing love

In the dark of the night
I lie soundlessly
Exhausted and drained in my restless body
Trying to catch the missing love
Desperately........... uselessly

Miss You

the blink of your name on the screen
sending a surge of warmth pleasure
filling the long empty heart
with joy and happiness

Pemandangan Desa

pahatan alam atas batang dan salju
tangkai kering berhiaskan bunga putih lembut
terhampar kiri dan kanan
bak bingkai 'tuk lukisan alam
padang putih terhampar sebatas pandang
bukit lembah lenyap ditelan lapisan putih berkilau
semua bersih murni
dibingkai hutan kering musim dingin

Afternoon

The red sun take a peek behind the meager winter scenery
secretly enjoying the smooth white snow surface
it's light lighting the silken snow in the glowing gold

The fire on the fireplace crackling happily
spreading the joyful warmth
throwing the dancing shadow on the ceilings

She sits on the windowsill
gazing at the swinging snow
feeling content and satisfied

Snow

the flakes of miracle falling on to the earth
slowly as well as furiously
but always always gently

topping the cold soil with simply white
full of wonder
full of awe

Gently they'll melt
inducing the ground with a hint of life
vanish with nothing but wonderful memories

Masked

Putting up a strong face
Being able to always be counted on
Showing the cheerful face

All for the sake of hiding the truth
Sadness for being alone
Wounded by the friends

How easy it is to hide
Right behind the people appreciation
Throwing the charade of being normal one

While cover the true self
Inside the thin lies
Being the normal as expected

Daily Activity

As the night fade by
she stands there
engulfed by the dark coldness
watching the the city getting alive in the dawn

As the day darkens
she sits there
waiting for the cold darkness
watching the city going to sleep with the stars

And then together with the gentle night
she goes to sleep
watched by the smiling moon
dreaming the soon coming tommorow

Tjoerhat II

As we were still a little kid, we would get some gift if we achive something we should actualy achive. I'm now in the same position. I got a gift 'offered' in prize of letting go something I really dream to have and trying to work so hard to get it.
Geez.... I should just being grateful, but here I now bitching all the way....
Sheesh......

From the Past

Thousands beads of water beating my face
Through the drape of wetness I found it
Truth lies before my eyes deep within my soul

He's just someone from the past
Laughter, tears, love, hate, anger, warmth
Becoming soft and dull

Memory
Reminiscence of the past

New Year

First of all, Happy New Year!
Wish for a really happy healthy and of course successful year.

Goodbye to 2007, a year filled with happiness, thoughtfulness, insecurities, senselessness, despair, gratefulness, bliss, failure, aimlessness, guidance, sadness.

Hope that 2008 would be a better year....